Dating for a Dad

OMG, I hate to admit this.  Like, I really hate to admit this.  But if I’m being honest (and well, why not at this point), I was dating to find my baby’s dad.  Sometimes this was more conscious (actually asking myself after a date how “ready” they seemed to be) and most of the time it was quite unconscious.

It actually took me a while to see.  Or maybe, it took me a while to see the problem with this.  After all, I was dating to find a life partner and ultimately to start a family— why not evaluate that hard from the get-go?

The problem was that I was about 27 steps ahead of where I was with someone.  Which meant I wasn’t present, I was (probably) putting off a weird vibe, and dating became a high-pressure test.  Oh, and it wasn’t working.  I think I also had to realize that something in my approach was not attractive.  Even if I thought I was good at hiding the part of me that was desperate to get going with marriage and babies, I actually wasn’t.  It’s a lot for a potential partner to absorb.

So how did I work with the biological pressure I felt in my body, so that I wouldn’t drop that same pressure into a third date?

First, I had to realize I was doing it!  Awareness is one of those amazing things that once you have it, it offers the opportunity to change the thing of which you’re aware.

Second, I had to reframe dating.  Was there any other reason to date?  Anything else that could defuse the whole “find a mate” thing?  For me, I am genuinely curious about people… so I started to lean into learning more about my community.  I am also one that get overly focused and forget about having fun… so I also started leaning into having fun.  Ultimately I landed on looking for my two favorite outcomes from a date:  either a good time, or a good story.  This truly helped the ridiculously awful dates have purpose too.  And boy do I have some good stories now!

Third, I had to gently talk to myself about it.  Before a date, sometimes on a date, and, if it was a good date, then certainly after a date.  I reminded myself to take things slowly and to be present.  I reminded myself that establishing and enjoying a connection was the only thing that matters to begin.  And, if my mind ran significantly into the future, I reminded myself over and over that I didn’t know this person yet and that I was still evaluating who they were and whether they were worthy of the gift of my heart.

And finally, I did my inner work.  I did the self-healing work along side all of this, which allowed me to more naturally come from a place of ease.  I explored old patterns of dating, I examined my triggers and fears and hopes and dreams.  And I healed the wounded parts of me that were looking for someone or something to fix me. (And what a trick that last one was— when the only thing I needed to fix was the idea that I needed fixing at all.)

If you think you might be doing the same thing as I was, give some of this a try.  The worse case is you have a better experience of dating… and that’s something we can all appreciate!

And if you’re having trouble ditching the fear that’s amping up this focus on finding a dad, try my course. While it’s a course about making the decision to freeze, a major focus is on clearing the fear and emotions that can cloud and confuse us.  We tackle facing fear head on.  Click here to find out more.

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